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EXCITED YET SCARED, THIS IS HOW I FEEL ABOUT STARTING CBT AGAIN!

This week is a really big week for me.  In two days time I have my first CBT appointment in over five years.  For the uninitiated, CBT stands for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, and this involves a gradual exposure to whatever … Continue reading

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I THINK THEREFORE I AM….NOT A NUTTER : MENTAL HEALTH MEDICATION AND ME!

A blog about me being able to take medication for my mental health illness, for the FIRST TIME EVER! I can still remember the first time I tried taking a medication called clomipramine for my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.   I … Continue reading

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SUFFERING FROM ILL HEALTH CAN BE HEARTBREAKING AND SOUL DESTROYING AT TIMES, ESPECIALLY WHEN NOT EVERYBODY BELIEVES YOU!

“You sure you’re not getting obsessed with your bits”?  A GP said this to me once. “I think we discussed this last time how you’re maybe getting obsessed with your blood sugars”.  A Diabetic Nurse said this to me once. … Continue reading

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A QUICK TICKLE NEAR MY GROIN AND SOME MASSAGING WITH NOT MUCH PRESSURE….MY FIRST EXPERIENCE OF MANUAL LYMPHATIC DRAINAGE!

ME : “Hi, it’s Andrew Lloyd” Therapist : “Hello, do you want to take your shoes off before coming through” Now, I will be honest with you and say that this request here to take my shoes off did take … Continue reading

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17 YEARS AGO TODAY MY DAD DIED, BUT THE PAIN OF LOSING HIM WILL LIVE WITH ME FOREVER!

October 31st 1998 was without doubt the worst day of my life so far.  It was worse than when I got told by a doctor twelve months later, that I needed an investigation to make sure I did not have … Continue reading

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CRIPPLED…………………….WITH FEAR! MY CONTINUING AWFUL STRUGGLE WITH OCD!

Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your entire being is CRIPPLED with anxiety and fear? Fear about confronting the day ahead because you … Continue reading

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ANOTHER SETBACK AND BODY BLOW……….I DO HAVE LYMPHOEDEMA AFTER ALL!

A week ago I had appointment at a local hospital where my worst fears were confirmed, I do indeed have a lifelong condition called lymphoedema(in my lower legs) after all. I say after all because I have had this possible … Continue reading

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